New Site
Being a coach’s wife is never easy. And there aren’t many people out there to talk to about what happens with our lives in the setting of public school athletics and our husbands’ careers. So I started a new blog on Blogger called Coach’s Wife.
I would love to hear what you think about it. And if you know someone who is a coach’s wife, tell them to stop by and visit.
As for this blog, well I feel guilty because I have neglected it for far to long. I have been on Newsvine a lot these past few months. I have been trying to do some article writing and hope that maybe that can earn me some extra cashola…lol.
I do miss everyone that reads my blog and hope to talk to you guys really soon. God Bless You and have a wonderful day!
Much Love
Something That Is Helping Me
There is a song by Marvin Sapp I have been listening to, any chance I get. Tell me what you think!
http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=46e7bc577f557450ce2f
Wow! What A Start!
2009 really got off to a cold start! It has been constant cold, with no end in sight. Coach, K, and M are all busy with basketball; and I am chasing them. With games three nights a week (junior high games on Monday, for M. High school games for Coach and K on Tuesdays and Fridays), I can’t keep up with housework or my sleep. But its okay. My job is to support my kids and my husband.
Christmas was great. I got a new iPod! And let me tell you, Steve Jobs, you are awesome. That is the best creation in the world! I am not the most technologically up-to-date person in the world, I know. But that it is absolutely awesome to be able to put all your music on one little device; and it not get scratched, cracked, lost, stolen, borrowed by your husband who blames it on your son…I love it!
The guys all got clothes, video games, and money. They also got the Playstation 3, which no one really has time to play. But that’s okay. We will get to someday (yeah when Playstation 5 comes out…LOL).
K and M are growing way too fast. M is now 6’0″ and skinny as a rail. K is not far behind. I think they both have taken to growing since we got out for Christmas break, and that only means one thing….MORE CLOTHES SHOPPING AHHHHHHHH!
I am also having a time with my birthday coming up. On February 7th, I will turn 36! I am not sad about it. But I am not excited. There are so many things I wanted to do before I was 40, like take the world by storm. But I have realized it isn’t the most important thing in the world. I have my kids, my husband, my friends and most of my sanity. I think I will be okay!
I realized the other day, I don’t have to be famous, rich, or extremely gorgeous to be happy! I do have to have great shoes, though!
Ya’ll have a great start to the new year, and I will see you soon!
Much Love!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hope everyone had a safe and wonderful New Year. Ours was good, just busy.
Much love to you and yours!
Holiday Cheer
This time of year is usually full of craziness for my family! And this year is not proving to be any different.
So just in case I don’t get back around before the holiday break, Have a Safe And Merry Christmas! And an even Safer and Happier New Year!
Much Love!
Okay So I Thought I Was Doing Something Good!
Okay so I decided to buy the $15 upgrade to CSS on WordPress! I thought maybe I could do some neat stuff to The House! A little redecorating so to speak. Well…apparently I don’t have the foggiest idea of what I’m doing!
If there is anyone out there who would be willing to help me out a bit, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE feel free to let me know.
It’s the end of the week and I have put up three Christmas trees and am not a bit excited about the holidays! How sad is that?
Everyone please have a great and safe weekend….See ya next week.
Much Love
One Nation Under God
As a child, I went to a private Baptist school. My parents were both brought up in church. My father was not as religious as he is now, but he believed in God and he encouraged my belief in Him too. My mother was a little more into church, but didn’t force the issue. So I have always had this strong sense of God in my life.
For as long as I can remember, I have always said the pledge; and until I started public school, I prayed with the rest of my classmates. It never was an issue of whether or not it was right or wrong or infringed on someone else’s rights. I always felt, if you don’t want to pray or believe in God, then you are the only one who has to answer for that. So it bothered me this morning when I read this article this morning.
The author argues the words “under God” are in a sense, irrelevant to our society today. How? How can we begin to deny God in every aspect of our nation, when we are a nation founded by ancestors who came to this nation to be able to practice their religion freely and without persecution from the government? Those two words, do not suggest that you must believe a certain way. It does not mean you have to deny your religious principles. And if you don’t believe, you can personally omit it. But don’t ask me to not say it.
In the 1950’s, the problems we see today, may have existed, but they were not as prevalent as they are today. True we don’t live in the 1950’s, but societal standards shouldn’t be based on the times we live in. Our standards should be based upon moral principles and what is right; instead of what the media choses to push on us. I believe that many of our societal problems stem from turning away from God. I look at what I see on television and hear on the radio. Morality in this country is not our strongest attribute. Sex Sellsseems to be our motto. Our churches are not a full on Sunday morning, as they once were. We obsess about how we look. Crime against our fellow man has risen to all time proportions. Hopelessness runs amok. And instead of turning to a “Higher Power”, we tend to just lay down and stay there.
I will not deny God. And I think many of us have fallen into the rut of letting outside interference take our faith and hope away. We tend to forget we didn’t get here on this great big earth on our own. Something had to set it in motion. I believe it was God. I believe a lot of us have strayed away, including myself. And I intended to get back.
So let the naysayers go on about taking God out of one more piece of fabric in our society. Let them say how unimportant it is to commit to God. But I will not be that one anymore that follows. I need God in my life, I am not ashamed to say it.
Much Love
Been Gone Too Long!
Hey folks!
Sorry I have been away for so long! I have been keeping up with the news and been writing columns on Newsvine! The elections were so exciting and I got really involved in participating in the discussions! I neglected my blog, but I’m back.
I have to say, I was really nervous about this election. But I am still awestruck about Obama’s win. It is a very historical moment in this country. But I also think he will bring the changes we need, in this country, to get us back on track. Making history is great, but the real work is about to get started. And boy are we in a mess.
The first semester of school is almost over and there are so many changes in our lives right now. Our football team lost in the first round of the playoffs. Both K & M are playing basketball. K is driving me crazy! He isn’t adjusting well to high school and is really about to make me hurt him. M is as laid back as ever. Coach is having a good basketball season. His girls are 3-1 and may be able to make it all the way to state if they keep working and playing hard.
I am no longer the cheerleading sponsor. It is a long sorted story and I really just don’t want to get into it. But lets just say my stress level has gone down tremendously. I love them; but I’m not the person for the job. Our personalities are all a little too strong and it doesn’t help when they knew me as Coach’s wife before I became their sponsor.
After two long years, my mother came for Thanksgiving! She brought the boys electric guitars and amps. They were really excited. She got the chance to watch K play basketball, and the rest of our high school teams. She spent three days with us and then left Friday after Thanksgiving. The boys were sad, I was was mad, and Coach didn’t think it was fair. She could have stayed a little longer. But at the same time, I’m just thankful to have gotten to see her at all.
Christmas is coming and I have started the holiday shopping. I really hate going to the mall, so I am doing as much as possible online. Makes life easier.
Other than the regular busy schedule I keep, nothing much is going on in my life. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! God Bless You All!
Much Love
Quick End of Week
This is a rather quick end of week thought! But I have some stuff I have to get done and I thought this was really important.
As you know Congress is proposing a $700 billion bailout of Wall Street! It is not benefiting any of us struggling taxpayers. In fact, it is going to be a tax burden on the middle class. Please join me and many others and sign this petition presented by U.S. Senator Bernie Sanders of Vermont.
Its important that we take a stand!
I will try to get back with a real thought of the week, but like I said I have a million things to do and very little time to do them in.
If I don’t talk to you before the weekend starts, Much Love! Have a safe weekend!
I Love Football!
When I was a kid, my dad use to watch every sport imaginable on the weekends. But my favorite was, and still is, football! This weekend, my husband and I went with our FCA organization at school to watch the Texas Tech/UMass Game! It was awesome! I love college football. And being right there sitting in the in-zone was just the best.
We took 68 students from junior high and high school, along with five other sponsors. The best part of the game was watching some of our kids. Many of them don’t get the opportunity to experience something of that caliber, so the looks of awe on their faces as the band played, as the players came down to our end to stretch, as the crowd roared; was absolutely the best reward anyone could ever get.
And watching my kids was absolutely cool too! K & M loved every minute of it. But I think they liked the concession stand a little bit more! K got some really good pictures with his cell phone. I will try to get them from him to show you a few more shots.
All in all it was a great weekend. M came in 14th out of 138 runners at the cross-country meet. This coming weekend will be pretty busy. Both of the boys run cross- country on Saturday, plus K has to show his lambs at the Lubbock Fair! It’s his first time ever showing an animal and I hope he enjoys it. I will be at some food stand with a turkey leg in each hand :-)!
Have a great day! And Much Love!
Trust Issues!
I have been reading a great blog called Without Wax. It is an awesome blog, by Pastor Pete Wilson from Cross Point Church in Tennessee, that has made me think about myself and my relationship with God, among other things.
Today’s topic is called Is Your Trust Meter Broken! And it really got me thinking.
I don’t trust very well. I don’t respond well in big groups or one-on-one interactions because I am terrified to trust people. Through the years, I have tried really hard to be trusting; but, I ended up getting hurt a lot of times. It took me years to really trust my husband; and he is the most trustworthy person I know. I let other people’s actions towards me effect the relationship I had with my husband. I think I finally worked through that, but I still have issues with trusting others.
I have to admit that my upbringing didn’t really help either. My parents got divorced when I was about to be 7 years old. And in my 7 year old brain, I thought most adults just lied to little kids. I had a hard time trusting my father (whom I have since forgiven). And for a child, that is something hard to cope with. My mother didn’t make it any better, because she watched (and still does) too many horrible news stories and doesn’t trust the world in general. I think the divorce had a lot to do with it too. I could barely let my kids go outside to play because “someone was going to take them”! In her eyes, I think she believes the world is out to get you. That there is someone always around the corner trying to do something to you. And that is the mentality I was raised with.
It made it hard for me to make friends when I was younger, I could just jump right in and say “Hi, I’m Tanilan. What’s your name?” I stayed in a corner. And a lot of times, I just played alone. Sure I have friends now. But it took me a long time to trust and develop relationships with people because I didn’t trust them. In the back of my mind, I told myself I would get hurt.
I want to thank Pete Wilson. I think God put you on my computer a few weeks ago and He is guiding me through, with your words.
Much Love!
Quick End of The Week!
Well today is D-Day! It is Homecoming and I am pretty much a stark raving lunatic! But it’s okay!
I get to see my kids today (the group of kids that graduated this past May) and they have all offered to help me out. They are so awesome, and that is why they are my babies.
The cheerleaders have all lost their minds! One of them yelled at me this morning and come Monday, there will be some consequences! I didn’t scorch her on the spot because I was dealing with 9 other things at the same time. But victory is mine! I will win this war!
I love all of you! Have an awesome weekend!
Much Love
Homecoming Week Blues!
This week has been chaotic to say the least. We are doing homecoming activities, and my cheerleaders have become even more complacent and whinnier than usual. “Have you got this?” “Did you call them?” “Why can’t we meet then?” “Why can’t the JV do it?” Ugh…whatever! Sick of the Diva-liciousness they are have decided to exhude! I have been too nice for too long; and it stops today!
Coach is tired of the late practices and our family eating late (we’ve been eating at 8:45 and 9:00 every night for a week). K and M are exhausted, along with us. K’s school work is lacking We have barely seen one another during the week. But these girls have taken advantage and really just taken over my life!
I have come to a very real realization, that I have let these individuals dominate my life and dictate what happens in my life. This didn’t just start with Homecoming Week! No sir! It has been going on all summer, and it stops today. My husband and my kids are far more important than any of this cheerleading crap! I love my girls, don’t get me wrong! But they have sucked my emotionally dry, for the last time.
Today, we will have practice and go through our pep rally, one time and then I am going home to my kids and my husband. Next week, when we have a regular week, things will be entirely different or we may not have a pep squad. Time to take a stand!
Much Love
Here Lately…
Here lately….
I have been trying to find me.
I have been emotionally distraught.
I have been panicking for reasons I can’t identify.
And here lately….
I have watched the world go by, though a crack in the wall; wondering what I have missed.
I have wanted to blow the wall up, so I can see the world.
But here lately,
I have met some people that have showed me, its going to be okay.
I have found some people that have a better perspective than I do, and have been a big help.
So it will be okay! I will make it through!
Much Love
P.S. I didn’t forget today was 9/11. Just having a hard time finding the piece I wrote about, I believe last year. If I find it, I will repost it today! Love ya!
Finding Myself
As a few of you know, I have been doing some soul searching the past few months. I don’t have an extremely exciting life; but, it is quite busy. I started feeling like I didn’t have a purpose and feeling like I had lost myself in the whirlwind of my daily life. I am still struggling, but I have found out some things about myself that I need to accept, change, or eliminate.
1) I let situations get the best of me.
I let the things that I can’t control, overwhelm me, emotionally; to the point of anxiety and panic attacks.
2) I try to do way to much
I try to be super woman, knowing that I ain’t! Which leads to the first thing on my list.
3) I need to get rid of the unnecessary stress in my life.
The situations, activities, etc. have taken so much out of me, I have no time to deal with the things that are important…my family.
I need to put God first in my life again. For way too long, I have prayed and talked to God, but I haven’t lived the way God wants me to. Part of my panic, my feeling like I don’t belong, my feeling out of sorts I believe stems from this. I know that though God, I can do all things. But I have got to put him first and back into my life.
5) My kids are growing up to fast.
This is one of the things I can’t control. I look at my sons and think “Where in the world did all the time go?” I feel guilty because I had to miss out on some of the things that important in a child’s world, in order to support them. Now that I have the opportunity, I am finding out a lot of things I just didn’t know about K & M.
6) I don’t play well with others!
I tend to let other people’s crap get on my nerves. I get defensive, mad, and put out at what others do. I let other people steal my joy! I let other people do things to me; I take it, and then get mad about it. Ugh…not good.
These are just a few things I have been musing about. I am working though this stuff. It is a challenge that I think is worth it. And, I will succeed, no matter how long it takes me.
Much Love!
What I’ve Been Up To?
I know I said I would be back ASAP, but life happens. You get swept up in all the things of everyday life; and you just can’t get away from it. So I apologize for my absence!
Since we last spoke, I believe I was running around like a mad woman! K has since started raising two more lambs, had his first JV football game, and driven me bonkers! His locker is right across from my library; and he thinks he can come in here between classes and be tardy and get away with it. I told him I would write him up myself, if he was late to class. Anyway….he is doing great and just as busy as always. The first day of school was hard, because I looked up and my little boy was no longer little.
M is doing okay! Just taller than me! And like his big brother, eating me out of house and home. He started marching with the high school band and is loving it. He has Coach for two classes (English and Reading). He has changed quite a bit! He is no longer the quiet, smiling little boy he once was. Oh, he is still happy! He just speaks his mind a whole lot more!
Coach is not coaching football this year (sniff!). He is our Girl’s Head Basketball Coach! I miss being in the same building with him. But that’s okay! He is driving me and my cheerleaders to the out of town games. So, that makes me feel a little better.
And ME! I have been dealing with cheerleaders all summer and all the “wonderful” things that come with guiding 13 girls! I have learned a lot about myself and what I need to do to become a stronger person. It has not been easy. And at times, I think the old coach set me up to fail! There are a lot of things that asked about and got the “Oh don’t worry about it, it’s taken care of!” lie! But it’s going to be okay because I am going to make it.
Seriously have missed you guys! I think things will get calmer around here, so we can sit down and catch up on things!
Much Love To Everyone!
What A Summer!
This has been one of the busiest summers I have ever had. First there was cheerleading camp (a week after school was out). Then there was the fundraisers. Coach is working for the school during the summer; painting the classes on each campus. K has taken up raising 3 lambs for Ag Sciences. M had band camp for a week.
Now the Fourth of July is right here and it isn’t getting any quieter around here. M’s birthday is Saturday. K’s is next Sunday. We have a town celebration I have to work on the 12th and I have a wedding to go to the same day. Coach starts two-a-day practice with his basketball girls; and I start cheerleading practices on the same day.
So we are running like mad people! I miss all of you and I promise when things get calmer I will sit down and write more. Until then….
Much Love
Still Super Busy
I promise I haven’t forgotten about you guys! It has been a really busy start to the summer. I will write later on today! But I thought I would let you guys know I am still amongst the living LOL
Much Love!
Super Busy!
OMG! This is a really busy week! Inventory is in full swing and we are getting ready for the end of school. I also have cheerleading camp in two weeks! So I will let you know how things are going.
Also thanks to Gayle and Lex for the advice I will try anything I can to get on the right path.
Much Love!
Realizing The Things I Can Not Change
I was going through CNN.com and ran across this story about a women living in her car after she lost her home. I know that I cannot change it, and ranting about it will not help this woman’s cause. But it did scare me. It scared me to think, that could be me and my family. That could be me and my boys!
But it didn’t upset me like it would normally. I didn’t feel the need to rant and rave; or jump up and down. Over the weekend, I have been working on trying to not let things get to me. Trust me, it isn’t easy, but I am making the effort. I feel calmer.
If any of you know of any good sites that would help me with my quest to be more at peace and help me to become a better person, please feel free to leave it here on my comments. I want to do this, not only for myself, but for the people around me.
Much Love
